Don’t ever put your happiness in someone else’s hands. They’ll drop it. They’ll drop it every time."
Christopher Barzak, One For Sorrow
This. Every single time.
Now it’s all a bunch of reblogs of pictures, quotes, song lyrics, etc. I miss when people actually wrote about what they’re actually thinking or feeling. I miss original content from my friends.
But I guess it makes me a fool to go on tumblr for that.
I know I don’t have anyone here. I know that I’ll feel loneliness for the foreseeable future. I may never find that companion. But I know God will forever desire me. And that’s where I’ll find my comfort.
It has been such a long journey to get to where I feel like is only the beginning. I often wonder how I got to be here at Franciscan, what exact moment was it that God told me to come here. It wasn’t too long ago that I avoided going to retreats that I was invited to. It also wasn’t too long ago where I wanted to stop going youth/young adult meetings. And yet here I am, in a place engulfed with the Holy Spirit, a place where I can feel God’s graces being poured onto me.
I want to say this place is changing me, that it is because of this school that I am transforming, but I know that would be doing God an injustice. God, because he loves me so much, because he desires me so much, is changing me, forming a new life in me.
And although I may have not always desired this, I know that this is the only thing that can satisfy me.
I can only pray God continues to grant me the desire to be satisfied in Him.
This is only the beginning of my new life.
— Dei Verbum 10a, followed by commentary.
It’s been a little more than a week since I’ve left home, and I can truly say God has blessed abundantly. I can’t begin to express how thankful I am.